So… I was sitting in a coffee shop this morning studying and what not and this song came on my MP3 player and it made me think of
You were almost kind, you were almost true
Don't let me see that other side of you
You have learned in time that you must be cruel
I'll have to wait to get the best of you
Poison in everything you say
Don't you, don't you?
Wonder what difference does it make......Either way
You were almost kind, you were almost true
Why give away that other side of you
Happens every time, so it must be true
Step on a kid, he'll grow up hating you
Poison in everything you say
Don't you, don't you
Wonder what difference does it make....Either way
Were you ever kind, were you always cruel?
Who's ever seen that other side of you?
Happened every time, so it must be true?
Where did you learn it's either him or you?
You were almost kind, you were almost true
Don't let me see that other side of you
You have learned in time that you must be cruel
I'll have to wait to get the best of you
Poison in everything you say
Don't you, don't you?
Wonder what difference does it make......Either way
Part of me wonders if its ok for me to still think about that situation. I’m certainly not as haunted as I once was by it, but every once in awhile it gets me and I have to pause and get back on track… I think that’s all I have to say about that.
This weekend was crazy, lots of work, a little partying and HMH lunch and bookclub. I so look forward to that every month and I really wish that I could have been more together with it. Like more not tired ;).
I did a lot of organizing in the new apartment last night and it felt really good to get some stuff settled. I am still waiting on Steve to go through his clothes and some other stuff so that we can get completely organized and also find a place for everything. I’m so ready to be settled. Today we are hopefully going to move all that furniture, I’m not looking forward to it a bit, but I’m ready to be done. I’ve done a lot of thinking about the whole Steve and I situation… I still have a lot of fears, but then again I don’t. Things do pop into my head sometimes, I often wonder when its not going to be fun anymore, when the magic is going to go out of it. Is it possible for it to not? I don’t know, if I did, I think that Absinthe and I would still be together, but then again, we really had different paths. But there are a lot of things about Bo and I that are so different. Like the fact that the moment I saw him I knew I was going to be with him. I had such a crush on him long before it seems he even knew I existed, but for some reason it became a productive crush. There isn’t really anything about him that bothers me, I don’t have any complaints, and everything that goes on between us is out in the open, nothing is really swept under the rug. I have a big appreciation for that.
I guess its kind of boring and it gets old to hear about Steve. I’m waiting to really get on someone’s nerves, but he and I are just so right now and I can’t really think of anything else but that sweet boy. Hmmm…
