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So today I'm posing for a nude painting!!! This is something that I've always wanted to feel beautiful enough to do... I'm grabbing my balls and doing it!! I'm excited, and a little nervous, but I think it will be good for me... I haven't told many people about it, but its something that I'm proud of. J is doing the painting, and he'll take photos first and then paint from them, he's been a close friend of mine for a long time and I feel very comfortable with him. He's good at reassuring and just in general being spectacular!! I'll let you know how it turns out!!

Beauty

What a deliciously peaceful afternoon its been... I sat outside after work and read. Read until the moon started rising. I just finished reading The Shell Seeker by Rosamund Pilcher. What an amazing story. About an incredible woman that we should all aspire to be... She reminded me of Gammy... So here's to you, you beautiful soul- a woman of grace, fortitude, and generosity. Thank you, for being human, with faults and flaws and perfection! Thank you for gracing our lives, and teaching us about strength and happiness, and open doors. I miss you terribly, but often I feel you...

I have been reminded that everything is as it should be. Sometimes hard, almost unbearable, but perfect... We are meant to taste of life and drink the cup of it to the dregs, bitter and sweet alike...