So its been a really long time. I'm trying to get back into writing but its hard these days. Getting back to myself and fighting back and forth from being rather depressed. I think its been an adjustment not working and being at home all the time without Steve. He's out of town for a couple of days playing some shows deep in Georgia. I miss him. But I'm trying not to let myself. I've cleaned and done a bunch of things all around the apartment, stuff that I've been asking him to do for a long time or I've been putting off. But its felt good to be able to get into something around here and not feel interrupted when he comes home for lunch or from work. I washed all my laundry in the bathtub because I don't have enough money for laundry. But it was kinda fun and I saved a lot of money. I have goals for cleaning and doing some other stuff around the house but the bedroom is perfect now!
I'm so excited about going back to school! I hope that I get registered for that Nutrition class and maybe a job too? Next week is the family beach trip and I'm kind of excited about going and kind of nervous. I'm tired of missing Steve all the time and the past couple of times I've been to the beach its been really funky terms. Chad and other things. But Steve said he was going to do his best to come down for a couple of days and that would be really fun... I wanna go fishing with him at the beach. I wanna go fishing with him and my Papa... That would be awesome. This feels like a superficial post. I have a lot more to say but I think I'm going to do some yoga and think about taking a shower and going to bed... On my own terms tonight...
