Wonky

I woke up really early this morning on my own. Its weird, I'm getting into some sort of cycle being by myself these days. I kind of enjoy it, waking up and having the mornings to myself, having the dreams to myself. I spent the day yesterday with Mike and Heather. Mike and I talked about so much. We talked about sexual identity, shopping, and salsa dancing. We even danced quite a bit, it was so much fun! Then Heather and I spent the rest of the day and evening together. We talked about my Saturday night which, was so interesting, ate dinner, and saw the most wonderful movie, "Little Miss Sunshine". My Saturday night was really fun. I'm getting better and better at putting myself in social situations and handling myself, something I would have never been comfortable doing a year and a half ago. I'm getting better at getting to know people, and I think I might even be getting better at letting people know my limits. Something that I've struggled with for so long. The psychic told me I would be touched by romance numerous times this year, that I wouldn't have any room in my heart for relationship but to let whatever happens happen and to just let it come and go like a river. I'm working on it. It seems to be such a slow process, and I'm anxious to get my bearings now, after I've found my comfort zone within myself. I guess I'm anxious to test myself. There are places that interest lies and I'd like to explore those arenas. If not for romance sake, just to have some new people in my life. Relationships teach people to grow, because that's what people do, they move in and out of lives, growing or not, or having events that other people learn from, its all a very dynamic life cycle, I like growing and I want to continue it. I think I'm blabbering. Anyway, my dreams were very full of people last night. People that I wasn't quite ready for them to be full of, and I find myself very contemplative this morning.