So, a lot of things have happened in the past couple of weeks. I almost moved out again and then I broke down and couldn't do it... Things are rough right now... I went and saw B last night and he was really tough with me. Finding someone with understanding and who is willing to listen to my questions is hard to find. I wanted to find out some things, about how to better communicate and whatnot and I don't know. I know that so many of the things he said were true, and see the thing is, is I know what's true, I just don't know what to do with it. I do feel trapped right now, I don't have the money to move and I'm nervous about transferring schools and all of that junk.I think that anyone would have anxiety about these things... I want to make this work, I really do, I just don't know how and its so hard to find anyone that has constructive objective advice to give. Its always, well you just need to get out. Well, its not that easy, there are a lot of factors, and there's fear. I don't think I'm capable of doing all of this on my own. What happened to all the people that I was there for, that I provided a shoulder to cry on... Why can't it be reciprocated.. Blag, the frustration is immense and I feel like I going to explode in the very near future. That is all