Impeccability means without sin. A sin is anything you do which goes against yourself. When you are impeccable you take responsibility for your actions, but you do not judge or blame yourself. Self rejection is the biggest sin that you commit.
Consider how many times you have gossiped about the person you love the most to gain the support of others for your point of view.
Use the word to break all those teeny tiny agreements that make you suffer.
All of humanity is searching for truth, justice and beauty. We are on an eternal search for the truth because we only believe in the lies we have stored in our mind. We are searching for justice because in the belief system we have, there is no justice. We search for beauty because it doesn’t matter how beautiful a person is, we don’t believe that person has beauty. We keep searching and searching, when everything is already within us.
To be alive is the biggest fear humans have. Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive, the risk to be alive and express what we really are.
In your whole life nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. And the limit of your self abuse is exactly the limit that you will tolerate from someone else. If someone abuses you a little more than you abuse yourself, you will probably walk away from that person. But if someone abuses you a little less than you abuse yourself, you will probably stay in the relationship and tolerate it endlessly.
Like a sword with two edges, your word can create the most beautiful dream, or your word can destroy everything around you.
Last weekend was the Mind Body Spirit expo. I learned many things and I’ll get to that later. But what I’m going to write about now and put here are correspondences between Tim and I about an issue that I’m facing. Or have decided to face and deal with. An issue that I find seems to be the center of all of my issues. Something that smacks me in the face time and time again and I am terrified of dealing with. Something that seems insurmountable but I have no choice in battling. I don’t want to live the rest of my life suffering. I want to change the dream that I live in. The dream of myself and the eyes and thoughts that I see through and I can begin this journey but it has to be active and continuous. I have to do it everyday.
So, I was wondering if I could bounce some things off of you. So much going through my mind lately. I'm sure that Sunny told you she did a reading for me and strange but none of it was news to me. But it needed to get put into words for me. It was extremely important for me to hear. But one of the things I'm realizing about myself is that I'm getting better and better about catching the thoughts that are so detrimental to me. And I'm coming to realize that some of my issues are going to be harder than others to change. The judgements about myself are the core things I need to change because those are what cause my judgements about other people. Some of those judgements are like viruses, and I'm sure that there are many I'm not conscious of. But I feel like I'm conscious of most of them. I'm so aware of everything that I do, most of my thoughts aren't the back thoughts that most people have.
Anyway, I think the hardest and most encompassing thing for me, at this moment and perhaps the thing that takes over my life the most is the judgement that I have about my body. And when I talk about myself I'm talking about my perception of my body. I realize how much I think about how I look... Not hair, or makeup, but shape and movement. And I'm not sure how to overcome this. It is painful and challenging. It would seem that I would be able to just change the way I percieve myself but its like I need new eyes. I feel like if I can get over this hill I can get over anything but I'm not sure if I can do it by myself.
Let me make that last thought clear. That means that in the past I have looked to many other people in to make me feel beautiful, to tell me I'm beautiful, whatnot. That doesn't work, I know. I don't want people to tell me I'm beautiful anymore, I want to find that in myself. I want to tell myself I'm beautiful. I'm want to love myself, and not in that bible camp, Jesusy way. I want to love myself in the real, raw, unconditional way, but, I need help finding the tools to do it. Any suggestions?
Thank you
This is the reply
Some good insights - no one outside of us can give us the love we seek. It
is impossible, no matter how hard we try or wish it. Only you can give it to
yourself, because that is where the Source is for you. Yes, I have some
thoughts...
It is a continual process of watching thoughts, questioning them and
replacing them with more positive ones. Over time, as these become habit,
the others drop away. This first step, is key no matter what else you do.
Being in a heart space - as opposed to head space - helps with a more
balanced outlook. That is why learning to truly feel gratitude helps to
shift awareness. Finding a solution to a problem from the heart space is
usually more holistic and balanced.
Meditation, meditation, meditation. I say this because guided imagery can be
invaluable to have the experience within yourself, with your Higher Self, of
feeling unconditional love. (I am listening to a lecture on developing a
relationship to your Higher Self that I would be glad to lend to you.) Some
form of meditation also helps to center yourself.
I just ordered another meditation called The Ribbon Breath Meditation that I
think would be useful. Do a search and read about it. It teaches about the
energy system, while guiding you to a more relaxed, open, loving state.
Journalling is good to get feelings out in the open rather than rattle
around in the head.
The last I can think of right now is patience. This mindset won't go away by
itself, so you are doing the best thing by facing it now. But it will take
time and effort. There may be times when it looks almost impossible. The
trick is to hang in there and maintain focus on the intention of feeling
unconditional love for yourself. By letting that be your focus, you will be
guided to people and experiences that can help you along the way. Part of
this process is learning to trust yourself.
Also, by maintaining your focus, you are telling the Universe - this is what
I want.
Speaking your truth, without apology and avoiding taking things personally
is also a great habit to develop. Speaking your truth is the active
principle of heart feeling. Feel it. Speak it. The connection is
strengthened. Be willing to appear foolish and make mistakes as you make
your way.
One last thing, consider what Unonditional Love looks like to you. It is
different for everybody. What would you feel and how would you respond? How
would you behave?
Hope that is useful -
I will add anything else, if I think of it.
Your body is the temple of your spirit. The body is not you. Your thoughts
and feelings are not you. So, who are you - and what do you want to be?
That is the million dollar question.
Wishing you the Love that you are -
Tim
PS We (humans) are all on the same journey. You are not alone.
So the past couple of weeks have been quite adventurous. I had a reading done by Heidi Kent and learned many things about myself and my life. I’m gonna be just fine and I’ve learned so many lessons from the past year of relationship. I’m finding now that I need to fall in love with me and that’s what I’m doing. I’m falling in love with life. And I feel so much better. Its not a quick fix, I still battle everyday with myself, changing my thought processes but those have started to change, I’m feeling different towards myself and whatnot. I’m bringing more and more people into my life and attracting people and also telling people yes and no when I want to. My judgements towards people are starting to go away and I’m forgiving myself for so much. I’m really enjoying my time by myself, working on school work and walking to class in the mornings by myself and being in random coffee shops to study and learn and be all up in some Higgins. I’ve been taking that time out in the mornings to meditate on the things that are bothering me or I’ve just been thinking about and learning about myself and the other things. Learning about what the universe is bringing me and teaching me. On the path to nirvana… On the way J. Feels so good finally. To move out from the bottom of that bucket and start on a path towards something good and wonderful
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